seeking rest

... and 2010 is coming a day too soon.

update

Die Herausforderung schwieriger Zeiten besteht darin,

sie in etwas Gutes zu verwandeln.

In etwas, das dich wachsen lässt.

(Michelle Akers)

I´ve got a couple of days left to work on my thesis. There´s still a lot of work to do, but I don`t really worry. I trust in my abilities to get everything done just in time and hope it will be okay by then. I am pretty happy my best friend will finish her own thesis the day after tomorrow and probably support me with mine around New Years Eve. Both of us put lots of energy and time into hers in the past few days and I really hope this will pay off for her.

Waaaay to go.

missing you

Waking up to find another day

The moon got lost again last night

But now the sun has finally had it’s say

I guess I feel alright

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything

And nothing less, you know I’d give you all of me

Cause I wanna have a really true love

Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up

Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring

And I wanna make it worth the fight

I know you’re here, in the dark

When I’m watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

pretty tired

I always loved that cute peanut with the blanket most of all.

if love is blind ....

why is lingerie so popular?

it´s peaches geldof. beautiful girl.
i usually like her style.

"Only Robinson Crusoe had everything done by Friday."

... so I´ve got a nice amount of work ahead of me ...

I so don´t want a beige life.

less than 3 weeks to go for my thesis

I want it done,
so I should get it done.

Remembering that all easy things seemed difficult at first.


There´s still a great amount of work ahead of me
and I am really frustrated at times.

When I was driving home yesterday evening,
snow came down and melted on my windscreen.
That was absolutely beautiful.
I was fascinated and sad,
cause it made me realize
that Christmas is just around the corner.
I don´t have the time and energy
to get myself into all these Christmas things
e.g. decorating, do shopping, or baking.
I love this time of the year and I would love to celebrate it.

Right now I´m just hoping for next year.

so maybe i´m crazy

just got home from that awesome P!nk concert. this wonderful lady knows how to perform so going there was definitely worth it. my best friend who went with me was delighted, too. we had a great evening and i even got the posters i had planned to buy for some time. i didn´t take my camera with me as the exposure is f**** bad right now. so no pictures for me today, but i will get myself a new cam by the beginning of 2010.

now it´s almost two in the morning and i´m gonna listen to some music and write down those reports about myself that my mentors should have written some time ago ... so hopefully i can give them to my seminar faciliator on Tuesday.

"they need beer"

nur noch einmal schlafen :)

love that woman.
she´s incredible.
just amazing.

and yes, i´d do her.
repeatedly.
off to bed :)

rrrrr

tz, naughty me.

in addition to my last post:

this world is not only narrow-minded but also full of stupidity.
want evidence?
do some shopping on a friday afternoon or saturdays,
pre-Xmas season is absolutely right for that.

thank God i´m the most balanced person right now
and keep all that sarcastic remarks for me.

my favourite music to dream myself away:

how small-minded people can be...
I'm really shocked how people defame others for what they are!
everyone who discriminates somebody for loving someone has a bad problem.

this really pisses me off.

the only thing I am pretty good at

is making myself cry.
I so want to get away from all this.

fuck it.

your voice chased away all the sanity in me

i don`t wanna see myself as someone that you saved
i´d rather be your adversary than to be your slave

... sooo schön geschrieben ...

Ich will Wasserschlachten beim Zähneputzen machen, nachts auf den Spielplatz gehen, zusammen kochen. Ich möchte solange gekitzelt werden, bis ich keine Luft mehr bekomme und beim Frühstück unterm Tisch füßeln.

Ich möchte weinen vor Glück und es soll mir im Bauch kribbeln, wenn's an der Tür klingelt und sie es ist. Ich will, dass ich mich ohne sie irgendwie nicht vollständig fühle, weil ich süchtig bin nach ihrer Nähe, ich will aufgefangen werden. Ich will bis in den Morgen reden und um jede Sekunde, die sie länger bei mir bleibt, feilschen - und natürlich gewinnen!

Ich möchte verregnete Sonntage mit ihr im Bett verbringen, im Regen spazieren gehen und ihr regenasses Gesicht küssen. In meinem liebsten Kuschel-Wuschel-Pulli warmen Vanillepudding essen und schöne Musik hören.

Es soll sich richtig schön anfühlen neben ihr einzuschlafen und neben ihr aufzuwachen. Ich will in ihre Augen sehen und mich zu Hause fühlen. Sie soll der Mensch sein, von dem ich mir wünsche, dass sie meine Hand hält, wenn ich sterbe.

Ich will es manchmal gar nicht abwarten können, wieder mit ihr allein zu sein und sie soll ihren Pulli bei mir "vergessen", damit ich bis zum nächsten Mal was habe, woran ich sie riechen kann. Wenn ich 80 bin, will ich in meinem Schaukelstuhl sitzen und unseren Enkeln erzählen, wie es war, als wir uns das erste Mal geküsst haben...

Mehr will ich gar nicht...

(c) not by me

Edit:
Es darf auch gern Schokopudding sein, Vanille find ich eher mäßig :)

Alter, gehts noch?

Unglaublich!

if I ...? would you ... ? could we ... ?

When words fail - music speaks.

quality time

friendship is just a word.
my girls give it a meaning.

thanks for this wonderful weekend.

everything will turn out alright.

break-through

Courage means being scared to death and doing it anyway.

I usally walk away being way too scared.
This time I didn´t.



Thanks for making it that easy.

Being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect.

It means you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.

yes, i am working!

Stell dir eine Gruppenarbeit vor, bei der ein Lernplakat über Fledermäuse erstellt werden soll.

Wenn ich keine Sozialkompetenz habe, haue ich mich mit den anderen Schülern.

Wenn ich keine Selbstkompetenz habe, habe ich weder ein Mäppchen noch ein Buch dabei und anstatt das Plakat zu beschriften zeichne ich Batman auf einen Zettel.

Wenn ich keine Methodenkompetenz habe, mache ich in Einzelarbeit ein Lernplakat mit Schriftgröße 2 mm, das mit "Es war einmal..." anfängt.

Und wenn ich keine Fachkompetenz habe, steht auf dem Plakat nachher, dass Fledermäuse Insekten sind.

I love my job^^

Live your life and forget your age.
N. V. Peale



I like living.

this time i know it´s true love

I've got some news. I´ve found the one!

WWWWOOOHHHOOO....I mean what's his name?

Umm..I'm not sure yet

Dear diary
I saw this guy at the show
He was singing to me At least I think so
All the world around me stopped when he said
Hi
He's the perfect guy
His hair, his eyes, oh, I love his smile
When he opened the door knew he was worthwhile
He looked so good standing right next to me
So beautiful I know our children will be

Dear diary
Today I found a new guy
With a movie star face and the perfect lines
Knight in shining armor
Hero to rescue me
He'll be so romantic just like in the movies
He'll play the role of a boyfriend for me
Like in "Here on Earth" with Leelee Sobieski
There's just one problem
Something I might have missed
He's a movie star
He doesn't know I exist

Dear diary
I thought my dreams had come true
Last week I found the one to give my heart to
Told all my friends about him,
Even tried his last name
Didn't see that to him
It was all just a game
He seemed so nice
I've known him for a whole week
But my friends didn't like him
Didn't know him like me

No more crushes or rushes, I´ll learn to be satisfied
With being single again
.... Wait! Who's that guy?
You are cute!

... here´s the complete song by superchick ...

counting down

P!nk "the queen" live - Sun 13.12.2009

Let go. Feel safe. Enjoy.

Es kommt eine Zeit im Leben,

da bleibt einem nichts anderes übrig,

als seinen eigenen Weg zu gehen ...



Sergio Bambaren

okay ...

ich bin verliebt! in ein foto. in exakt dieses bild.

ehrlich!

....

...


jetzt gehts wieder :)

some soccer in the sun

i really miss summer ...

just found some pictures of my younger team girls
playing soccer in the evening sun last september ...
all of us had a great time and a lot of fun.

most people got hobbies. me too.

collecting pieces of flair @ facebook. click!

acrobatics

well, i`m definitely not a fan of acrobatic gymnastics,
but this routine blows my mind.



their stunts are amazing. those russians ... argh.

i`m growing an oak tree in my kitchen ...

... which is a leftover of a great teaching unit i carried out
in September.



Another thing that keeps me from becoming clinically depressive
because of these grey and cold and wet days.
i miss summer.

When we long for life without difficulties,
remind us that oks grow strong in contrary winds
and diamonds are made under pressure.

P. Marshall

back tucks on beam by a 7yo

she´s incredibly good. future star.
it amazes me what young children are capable of.

life is good...

... it really is. sandy`s still here, but she was kind enough to let me get some sleep last night and get some things done during the day. i haven´t started my thesis yet, but keep thinking over it. i hold myself at fault for choosing that damned topic as i could have brought in something much easier. now i have to get along with what i got.

note to self for my next life: take the easy way!

i might become a shopgirl or an accountant by then.

i listened to music all day.
this is still one of my favourite songs right now:

i also played around with my cam.
things from my point of view
... seems like i get a little bored staying at home ...

i love these jeans <3

i got some more

feel free to let the spirit of Ireland into your heart,
dream yourself away and comment!

i really should be somewhere else

blogging from school. due to a misunderstanding i went to school two hours early, so i got some free time to hang around, feed the fish @ facebook and blog some silly stuff. i will have to carry out some psychological tests until 12 o`clock, then drive home and see the doctor in the afternoon. i might get a name for my sinusitis, too. it´s pretty clingy. what about "sandy"?

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listening right now: snow patrol - chasing cars

.

requested ...

... by someone who shares my passion for Ireland.
giving my regards to this wonderful lady from Berlin.
you so seem to find the right words for what i feel.

making fun of gay people ...

... is NOT funny. He definitely should know that.

on scars

I guess we are strong

`cause we know what it´s like to be weak.

randomness

pretty average day - school and meeting until half past four - my new student is known as a sexual offender to young girls argh - at my meeting people were in a foul mood - hate that - eating out with kiki - still love to spend time with her - she`ll move finally and live nearby... yay - i hate driving home when it´s already getting dark outside - i should try to get my house clean tomorrow - got a new guinea pig from my mentor, so paul is not longer a single living one - eve got big news :) i am happy 4 u girl - someone should believe in herself waaaayyy more and be less pessimistic :-*

“I always wanted to be somebody,
but I should have been more specific.”

- Lily Tomlin

re-starting that blogging thing

I hadn’t written any posts for a while.
I turned on the computer and wrote a new entry.
I clicked the ’submit’ button, thereby restarting my blog.

That´s kind of cool.

So I guess I am back. And it´s the perfect time to start over again... with my life getting crazier each day, having a great number of demons to fight, challenges to win and temptations to resist - or to give in. We´ll see.

~ Your blog is an edited version of yourself. ~

... and, in fact, pure vanity.